[wonder_er]

jesus. Some folks seem harsh here. You have one life, you're allowed to think critically about it, and weigh if you're getting from it what you want, etc.

I humbly propose that you start planning your exit from your software development career. Not forever, but at least long enough to rack up one or two alternative careers.

OR! I propose that the explosion of your marriage (and everything wrapped up in that) is the real gravitational black hole in your life (in a good way and bad way) around which everything else revolves.

My marriage recently blew up catastrophically, and it devastated me. I'm still not even sure what 'back to baseline' would look like, but I feel (disappointingly) fundamentally altered as a person. I generally believe we're all malleable enough, but I've got a lot of work to do, to recover a version of myself where I generally enjoy my own company.

Save money, reduce expenses dramatically, once you're at a 15-month runway pull the plug and leave.