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I am glad to hear that. I was hard with you because I've seen too many good people enter into similar cycles and some of them never come back. Yeah, I don't know if this at-your-face style of communication could help you, but if everyone was just parroting feel-good stuff at you, I had to try the intervention style. That said, maybe this particular company is not good for you. I once worked in an ad-tech company and my life was miserable because I could not come to terms with what I was helping to build. Maybe you despise the product you helping build, idk. Do some soul-searching, and if that's the case, changing jobs can help a bit, as long as you don't see it as a miracle potion. Generally, the stuff you do can produce mostly marginal improvements, don't expect giant improvements on any single change you do. And above all, tread lightly. Maybe change teams first? But man, please, just take a breath, and care less about stuff that actually doesn't matter that much in the great scheme of things. I really don't know what will help you, but just try a lot of stuff till something works, and all the while try to see the big picture. Man, we are just another animal on this small rock in a very non-remarkable planetary system, orbiting a very average star. Life is fucking short, try to enjoy it. Money is good, but it is only as good as the use you make of it, and you have to be careful because overly indulging in material desires gets old fast, and then you see yourself surrounded by junk that just depresses you. Try to avoid that trap. |