[sillymath3]

I can't understand this life style. To be the best at thinking deeply I need my mind to relax and focus in the goal, so to obtain a flux that point me in the direction to progress. Any anxiety or hurry is only going to make me blind to new opportunities. So, my advice is to learn to focus in a good target and forget playing being the number one.

Edited: Anyway, if you are unable to change that life style, I suggest you dedicate your life to something important for the rest of society, perhaps that can ameliorate being second in other fields.