| I've been taking oral ketamine for about 2 years now. Not super frequently, probably ~6-10x/year. I feel like it's been a pretty helpful addition to my life, but it's not what I expected at all. To me, ketamine isn't really "enjoyable" or seem to modify my mood directly or anything like that. What it does do is shift my perspective for a few minutes and makes me introspective in ways I can only see as healthy. Sometimes I think about my wife, my children, my finances, my work, my parents, cleaning the bathroom, whatever life issues I might be struggling with at that moment but the perspective shift brings a clarity to the issue and the solution seems obvious. I often want to jump off the couch and feel invigorated and motivated. (Of course ketamine also makes you fatigued so it's a bit of a strange mix of feelings). I mentally want to do things but physically I am not able to—that's fine though. I'm also an experienced meditator and have done traditional psychedelics, neither of those have improved my life as much as ketamine has. Meditation is simply really hard for me despite over a decade of trying and failing to make it a daily habit. Psychedelics work very well for introspection, but they're also terrifying and in my mid-30's I am pretty sure this is something I'm content with not needing to deal with again. I once heard someone say that psychedelics are like color TV and ketamine is black-and-white. Somehow this describes the feeling exactly to me. Ketamine isn't nearly as intense as LSD/psilocybin and that's the best part IMO. My life is in relatively good shape, but a monthly-ish tune-up with ketamine seems to have really been effective. |