[Nales]

Go talk to this person, and accept the job and help. Ignore the thoughts you can have on refusing this person's help. Do the job without pushing yourself too much. Use the money to follow a therapy and to try new things as silly as they may seem (workout, meditation, sophrology, hypnosis...) as long as they are not harmful (drug consumption, gambling...). Let yourself at least a year before considering suicide as an option.

Good luck in your life. You are rock-bottom in your life right now, but that does not mean you cannot have a good and happy life later.

[provenance]

Nah, amongst dozens of other incidents: Google mocked the suicide of a close childhood friend to me, then put me into a nonconsentual undisclosed matchmaker algo with a schizophrenic felon to discredit me, ostensibly/clearly on behalf of some wealthy folks with google exec connections. Any attempt to seek clarity on this from google has been ignored. I refuse to go forward in a society where ubiquitous technical surveillance is wielded by irresponsible malicious unaccountable entities like Sundar Pichai’s corp.

I was stalked and harassed using my private iMessages during the death of a parent. I refuse to go forward in a society where such coordinated bullying is allowed to occur. America is supposed to be first world but it’s a total shithole filled with low class, unaccountable scum. A lifetime of experience confirms this. Looking at the next generation, American culture will become far worse by 2030, 2040.

I’d rather be dead now.