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Sending you a lot of love my friend!

I would suggest to get a therapist. Don't overthink it and don't search for the best one. Just find someone to share what you are going through. Sometimes it can be even a good friend. It will help you a lot to take this rock of your chest for now. I didn't try BetterHelp, but people talk good things about it and it might actually be the fastest way to reach a therapist depending on where you live. If you can't afford a therapist, I recommended in my article to try "Woebot Chat App". It really helped me when I didn't have the money to afford a therapist!

But this of course won't just fix your situation right away. You will need to change some things in your life. Sometimes even your identity in terms of who you are and what you do daily. Maybe change your environment, cut toxic friends, etc.

It's a long way, but trust me, there is light at the end of the tunnel. Even, if it sounds cliché!

Feel free to email me at: [e-mail]. Sometimes just sharing with someone what you are going through and knowing there are people who listen can make a very big difference!

Again, sending you much love! <3