[Waterluvian]

Yeah. It feels uncomfortable to give advice like this but:

Abandon this project immediately. Use whatever personal resource (time, energy, motivation) you’ve got left to find any sort of technical/intellectual work that leverages your most valuable skills before it’s too late.

> “I merely exist here, as it is difficult to get any useful computer work done.”

Eventually you will find it impossible to do anything with those most valuable skills.