[mnky9800n]

I'm like twice your age and so far the world has always seemed rather unsure and life has always been a bit meaningless.

The purpose in life is to find your purpose. You need to try lots of different activities to find out what you like and dislike. Then you need to spend time doing the things you like so you become better at them. Things are more fun the better you are at doing them.

All your questions are grounded in this latent statement that the world around you is evolving and this is happening to you. But you are in charge of your life. You can choose to do whatever it is you want to do.

I suppose maybe you look at hacker news a lot and have been influenced by the AI hype. Stop looking at hacker news. The AI hype is nice and all but it's never going to replace the joy you feel when you open your sketch notebook and look at the pictures you drew. Nor will it replace your desire to learn about some topic that interests you.