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You are not the first to face such challenges and to consider suicide.

R. Buckminster Fuller, one of the most influential writers of the 20th Century and a favorite of the hippie/Whole Earth Catalog movement, faced such a moment on the banks of Lake Michigan when he considered drowning himself. This was when he was young and before he reached international fame for his ideas in architecture and philosophy.

I recommend reading Chapter 8, “Dialectic by Lake Michigan”, from the book *Buckminster Fuller: At Home in the Universe* to understand the reasoning he himself developed that night that led him to choose life and thus become the global celebrity the world knows him as.

Because of the good fight the Internet Archive is winning to make back-catalog in-print books available for digital checkout, you can visit archive.org right now, register, and read the chapter for yourself.