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Tell us more.

What hurts the most?

From your post, I'm hearing that you have a lot on your plate -- I'm seeing some disgust with your body, some frustration with your creativity and mental abilities, some fear about making a relationship work. That's a lot for anybody, and I'm sorry you're having to go through all that.

Where in your body does it hurt? Is there a specific feeling associated with some of this pain behind the numbness? A soreness in the eyes, a drop in the stomach, an ache in the foot...?