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Anxiety is normal. Any animal on this planet has it. Get yourself in "percieved" danger (climbing) and survive, to recalibrate that sense of anxiety, which is constant firing due to the society surrounding us being actively hostile to its inhabitants.

For medication resistant depression may i suggest: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Electroconvulsive_therapy

Notice also, that just because you are out of ideas and the situation is theraphy resistant, you do not have to end it "traditionally" and may instead try to go for "statistical" suicide by turning your life into a dangerous endavour.

Travel to dangerous places, jump out of working airplanes with parachutes, try to percieve the fact that you are as free as a creature under the sun can be.

Also the obligatory legally demanded worthless advice of thoughts, prayers and theraphy, ritually mumbled usually by those who actively participated in creating todays society.