[elmerfud]

It's difficult to say what to do. You should do everything you can to get professional help and if that help isn't working then find another professional and another... Until something works.

Asking here is really just asking for anecdotal information that maybe could apply to you but should still be filtered through a professional. So as far as anecdotal information I can offer only my own personal experiences. You don't say if you are a man or woman and not a lot of detail about your life but for many years I was in a very depressive state. During my younger years I was forced to develop a fairly strong mental fortitude that would allow me to mask the depression and anxiety and other things but they were always there but as I got older it became more and more difficult. I was probably the weeks or months from ending my life and something triggered me to go into one of those male clinics that you hear advertised all the time on the radio. Maybe it was the idea of there's no downside of just going there but my testosterone was very low and within 3 months of getting testosterone therapy and having that be the only single change in my life everything got better. The biggest thing is the day-to-day depression went away completely even though all of the things that I would sit and ruminate on that were horrible about my life we're still there and none of that changed and none of that is really changed even to this day but my mental attitude is I don't care and they don't bother me and it doesn't make me sad. And then all of the other side effects from having an increased or normal level of testosterone or just plus benefits the increased energy the ability to focus better the lack of anxiety and fear just kind of melted away. So that's really my personal experience without doing that I would probably have taken the choice that you're asking for alternatives to.