Yea I am working as a professional backend software engineer. Started right after University.
For what I really want to do, I am not really sure anymore to be honest. There are jobs that I think would be very interesting and a nice change of pace, like Graphics Engineering, but I always end up thinking I'm too under qualified. I'm almost done my Masters in Computer Science, but still don't feel too qualified.
Okay so you are a professional and are getting paid to create, presumably, useful software.
In that case I would take some time, be loving and kind to yourself, enjoy life, and consider what you would really like to do. Learn about a bunch of different things.
Then, go gradually. Learn to take one small step at a time. Read Meditations by Marcus Aurelius, which has a lot of wisdom about this subject. The Tao Te Ching is another great example of literature on wisdom and patience.
If you doubt yourself and don’t want to, then you need to accumulate small victories consistently over a long period of time. Write down in one place all of the things that you have accomplished and keep adding to it all the time. Call it a brag journal if you will. Eventually the evidence will accumulate that you are capable of what you want to do.
Finally, I recommend therapy and professional coaching to really break through any underlying psychological barriers that you have e.g. pathological belief systems. My email is open if you want to talk further.
Yea I think your third paragraph about journaling accomplishments might do some good. Breaking through the mental barriers seem to be what I'm ultimately trying to accomplish.
I'll check out those books, I've heard a lot about Marcus Aurelius.
For what I really want to do, I am not really sure anymore to be honest. There are jobs that I think would be very interesting and a nice change of pace, like Graphics Engineering, but I always end up thinking I'm too under qualified. I'm almost done my Masters in Computer Science, but still don't feel too qualified.