[Temporarily21]

I also had this when I was about six years old except I wasn’t in danger at that time. It was a “holy shit” experience. It has happened since. Voluntarily. Last one was at 19, which was involuntary, I thought I will lose my mind. Since then I try to reproduce it by listening to some people who I feel can help and meditating but no luck. Maybe it is not meant to be now.

[aristofun]

After some thinking I realized that i don’t really want that experience again, neither do i want any sort of “enlightening” experience.

Just like lsd trips — there’s nothing valuable to it except the experience itself.