[noduerme]

aw hey thanks. I'm glad you weren't offended. It's pretty crazy how many things are competing to turn us into machines these days... into consumers and addicts in so many parts of our life. Definitely no judgment here. I'm an alcoholic; I understand. You sound like your rational brain wants to put up a wall between you and that flood of happy chemicals, to preserve itself. Self denial is a life saver. Weirdly enough, the same happy chemicals show up again pretty soon in a new form after you get off an addiction to something. (hopefully they attach themselves to something productive... not always, but it's worth rebooting when you know you're trapped)