[frogcoder]

Disclaimer: I was never at any position close to like Sr. Director at a fortune 100 tech giant, maybe your company is different.

I use to act as if I own a large stake of the company I worked for, regretting it much later when I realized I was doing too much and knowing too little.

I was just kidding myself pretending as an owner of the company therefore investing too much emotion and work into it. Why would I pretend something that is not true? It's not like fake it until you make it thing.

I do not know how much you know about your company, but I was an outsider that knew nothing about the inner workings and secrets about it. I thought I knew, that's the kidding myself part.

Unless you are a real owner, you are just a cog in a machine. If you perform well, you will be rewarded well as a cog in a machine not as an owner. Most decisions you make would not affect the overall situation. Just do your job well and try to spend time with something else you care after work, not something you have no control of.