[shisisms]

Not being a software engineer I’ve been relearning to code again, and after a deep dive dived into a new framework. Which was a headf*k to put it mildly including server config etc.

What I re-learned was the “arc of despair” that initial period of complete disaster where everything wasn’t just confusing but incredibly difficult. And many many times of asking myself of whether this was worth it and whether I shouldn’t just pay a “professional” to do it. Then within days I was swimming fluently. Was a strong reminder of the various stages of being auto-didactic. The need for faith :)

And yes, in the end it was worth it, because the lateral connections and first principles you learn (complete with new learnings and questions) allows you to go much deeper than simply paying someone else to do it. Was a reasonably profound experience.