[fellowniusmonk]

I embraced that life is absurd and a mystery and that many people are kind and good hearted. Knowing they exist makes me less lonely, it doesn't matter if they can understand me, it only matters that they don't "think" that they understand me. I found solace in sonder I guess.

That's enough, the world and my life isn't meant to be understood or make sense, as far as I can tell my life is not meant for "anything" by "anyone"... though maybe I'll find out differently one day.

I don't know if that is part of ego death or what, but I am glad to be here, I'm glad and lucky I didn't die at 3, I do seek out people who are good hearted but weird, iconoclasts, unfiltered... in one instance I became a close friend to someone who has tourette's and I always know what's on their mind.

I don't know, I guess I ended up a misfit toy that really enjoys other misfit toys.