[shahidkarimi]

13 years ago I was so passionate about programing and software engineering. I used to stay in front of screen consucutively for 48 hours. But, now I realize that it was not for me. I tried to commit sucide three times. I was not good at soft skills. Though I solved many complex technical problems at work but did not excel in career. Its been 4 months I am jobless and I dont want to code again. I think software engineering and coding is the most painful job on the earth. I prefer death over doing it again. On the other hand I am running out of cash, I have two kids not sure what will happen in next 3 months.