[petesergeant]

I've done all of these things. I've essentially been on a diet since I was 17. I am not (especially) fat, but the amount of mental and emotional energy I burn on not being fat is huge. It is a daily struggle. Like one of the parent posts, I've achieved a number of other hard things in my life that took sustained effort and willpower.

I can easily eat 7-8,000 calories in a day, and there's no amount of stairmaster can fix that.

I've also previously taken modafinil, and had situations where I've had caffeine having been caffeine-free for a while, and the appetite-suppression properties have me thinking "this is what normal people must feel like". I cannot wait until these drugs become available in the country I mostly live in.