[briga]

Everyone reacts to chemicals in their own way, but I think what you’re describing might be more related to general anxiety than to a particular chemical. It may exacerbate these feelings but I don’t think it’s ever really the root cause

[eyelidlessness]

This was exactly my theory for a long time, but I really do think it’s chemical. My baseline anxiety turns out to be very well treated by my ADHD meds (amphetamines). Cannabis high doesn’t feel at all like my baseline anxiety or like heightened anxiety that more closely fits typical general anxiety symptoms for me. It feels like what people describe when they talk about a bad trip.

Anyway I’ve thought about taking advantage of the legal market to see if there’s bud that works for me, and even (maybe especially) after working in the industry for over half a decade I’m not inclined. They just don’t grow anything for me, and I’m too old now to want to experiment.

I do appreciate your pattern recognition, because it’d be the same recognition I would have. I don’t think the pattern fits me though, I really do just react negatively to THC in high doses.