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I think one thing I needed to learn as an adult is that it’s okay to not want to do things, and to continue to not want to do them, to complain about not wanting to do them (mentally or in some appropriate channel) as I did them. As a kid, we weren’t supposed to complain about work, and I internalized that too hard so I didn’t even have that release valve mentally- I’d just avoid everything that I couldn’t make myself interested in because I couldn’t get a little angry and do it anyways. I used to think there were bad emotions and good emotions, but in fact, all emotions exist to motivate certain human-type-mammal behaviors. Like many things, the dose is the difference between medicine and poison.