[agalunar]

Or obsessive-compusive personality disorder, which is what I have.

I tend to either care entirely about something or not at all, and the only standard is "perfect" (there are no visible ways something can be improved) – "good enough" doesn't really make sense emotionally. And even though I'm completely self-aware and I recognize this as it's happening, it's difficult to control what I feel.

It's very frustrating. I sometimes wonder at how much more I'd enjoy things and how much more progress I'd make at work and with my hobbies if there weren't these... unbidden demands that take time to satisfy, the stress that the demands cause, and the constant internal battle between what I want to do or know I ought to do and the arbitrary need for something to be a certain way.