| What helps me is telling the truth about how I feel, to myself and to others. It may seem too simple, yet it has helped me so much. > Making friends/maintaining close relationships doesn't come naturally to me, and the more effort I put into it, the more detached and dishonest I feel. For me, that detachment and dishonesty drives me deeper into meaninglessness. I really try to just answer the questions "How do I feel right now" and maybe "How do I want to feel" or "What do I want to do". Very simple yet really really hard to answer sometimes. You say you feel empty and when I've felt that way, it's often because my body is feeling something and I feel so disconnected from it. Maybe it's not the same for you. Regardless, it has helped me so much. It's hard for me to answer "What do I want to do with my life" if I can't even answer "What do I want to eat for dinner" and I've found one of the easiest ways to answer that is "How do I feel when I think about eating pizza...how do I feel when I think about eating a salad...how do I feel when I think about eating dessert...etc." Connecting to the feeling, to the body, and putting it into words has really helped me a lot. Anyways, I'd love to chat with you more about this if you find it helpful, I sure hope it helps a bit. |