[nickd2001]

To me this sounds like loneliness caused by lack of community. If you could make some friends, from all ages, walks of life, you'd probably be much happier and have perspective on things. The challenge is the place to meet people. I'd recommend doing some volunteer hours, for various causes that are worthwhile and a way to meet other people. If one is ever depressed, a fast way out of it is to help someone, in person (rather than remotely) and see a smile that you helped put on their face. Others mentioned church. That might be worth exploring, if you're open to the idea of such beliefs. Preferably something fairly mainstream and diverse rather than wacky or cultish. Good luck :)