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You mentioned marijuana elsewhere. I really advise against weed mix with amphetamines/stimulants. It’s a recipe for schizo behaviour and I’m saying this from experience.

Have you considered umm religion? I’m gonna trigger lots of you anti Catholics out there. Done right I think religion is like practical psychology. You get support from others, practice managing your thoughts and learn how to recognize good vs bad thoughts.

My own path was to read Be Here Now a crazy psychedelic spirituality book, and then read books from that bibliography and choose something. I’m not here to shill my religious tradition, just to say there’s something there in that direction that may help you.

The wrong choice may make your life worse, but you will hopefully be able to recognize that and switch course. That would be your decisions to make.