[andrewmcwatters]

Sorry, I didn't think you'd see my comment.

It sounds to me like you're asking too much of yourself. Since failing isn't an option, anything less than succeeding at what you do next will make you unhappy.

I hope that I can remind you that it's OK and normal for people to just not be able to focus for periods of time. That's the human condition.

Go easy on yourself and take it one step at a time. But remember too, all the world over, the majority of people are working individuals. We all have to labor. No one wants to work with someone not working for extended periods of time. You have to try. Just do it slowly and consider pairing with someone; it's OK.

I wish you the best.