[pmarreck]

Did you grow up without physical intimacy/closeness from your parents or in particular your father?

[JetAlone]

I did have plenty of physical intimacy from my parents and my father growing up. Lots of hugs, kisses from both parents etc. After reading some of the other comments and reflecting, I think it's that I feel like too many of the people in this world are trying to socially manipulate me through touch, when I wish to be away from them.

[JetAlone]

Of course, with a world like ours, the people successfully manipulating me are more likely the ones I can't touch.