| You want a huge list of generic internet advice to feel intimiated by, ignore, then feel bad about? you can create amazing things!, this started a revolution in my head, I now have a goal: I want to be like these guys I want be admired by my peers Sleigh bells ringing... No wait, alarm bells. What does wanting admiration and to be like others have to do with creating things? I have tried telling myself that its alright, that its all about hard work that I have to stop feeling sorry for myself and just do it and start working, but no matter how hard I try I keep having these feelings of inadequacy You keep telling yourself that you aren't working hard enough, that you keep failing, and that this is OK, and then you're surprised when you feel bad afterwards??
Hello, McFly? and pretty soon I'm back to feeling sorry for myself, "it doesn't matter how hard you work, you'll never be like them" What are you trying to prove, and to whom? I don't ask to hear an answer, I suggest you ponder it though. This is indeed ruining my life. Indeed. What if you never ever become a great hacker, would you still code for fun? Could you ever really feeply admire and like yourself in that future? |