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I'm 40 already (this year) and I might be a recovering alcoholic. After I moved to UK, about 8 years ago, I was drinking every evening. I settled on 3-4 pints a night. No lasting relationships, just work and some more work. Later I discovered I like sailing and started doing that a lot. So it was work, more work, sailing, lots of drinking. I was functional, I've found ways to handle the hangovers, lots of hydration during drinking and after, found my "limit" - never actually got very drunk, just "tipsy". I was sort of coasting. Then something happened and I discovered that being in a relationship actually is a good thing, had the "pleasure" to have my very first panic attack, a few drinking blackouts. And I discovered that I was sitting on the motherload of depression. I'm doing better now, the relationship works, what I've read about how to handle depression works, I'm limiting myself to 2 drinks an evening - mostly so I can chat with my beer friends and not event every evening anymore, I'm seeing good things happen, I wake up earlier that I used to and the sky is blue (even in UK). My point is to talk to someone about this, alcohol abuse might be just hiding something more. |