| ( Edit: Sorry, not meant to threadjack, I just thought it answered a question that might come next along the line for the poster or others. The answer to the poster's question is "It's withdrawal" Peace and love to you all ) I'd love to see a long-form study of addicts attracted to software development. I'm an alcoholic and love nothing more than solving a really difficult software (or other problem). I think the two are related but likely not causally one way or the other. Probably just associated. But what would a statistical study do other than estimate your probable likelihood of whatever cause? Get to know yourself. Any way you can. Watch out for the side-effects of any suggested medications. KEEP A DIARY. And especially don't fret if you fail at getting better. A little better is awesome any time you manage it. Perfect is not available. All the very best, and if genes are on your side, you might be having a gin for the queen when you are 86, even if you don't succeed at being the best recovering hero everyone around you thinks they need you to be. Mostly, get to know yourself. Therapy is scary but crazy good if have a go at it. 1% efforts compound. And you are not alone. Unfortunately, you'll likely be surrounded by the 95% who don't know addiction intimately, but look for those who do. Cheers again. Peace and love to you and those you touch. |