| I have had a somewhat similar experience to you. I was living and working in London (big drinking culture) for about 10-12 years. Mostly just a few beers each night with work friends. After a while I had to have a few beers at night even when not out with work. This slowly progressed up to a 4 pack, then a 4 pack and a glass of wine, then a 4 pack and half a bottle of wine etc etc, then beers at lunch, and before I knew it I couldn't go without drink for very long. It was only when I started finding it harder to focus and forgetting really simple and recent stuff that I started to worry. I'd lost so much to drinking (driving license, girlfriend, friends, money, jobs) but it was when it started to affect my basic cognition that I took action. It was very scary, my brain is what pays my bills. After nearly 2 years completely sober I'd say I'm about 90% back mentally, but I've realised so many more benefits. Brilliant relationships, loads more money, I laugh more, I eat better, sleep better......it's fucking BRILLIANT!!! Please find the help you need sooner rather than later. You can turn things around and it's totally worth it. I'm 41 and sober this year! |