[mohave529]

I'm sorry you're going through a difficult time right now. It's very admirable to that you're looking to help yourself to better be there for your child.

I found myself in a similar situation 2 years ago, when it felt like the world was collapsing around me and the narrative of my life falling to pieces was the dominant soundtrack in my mind.

There was no easy fix, but I do believe that taking up a mindfulness/meditation practice was what helped me to become what I believe is the happiest I've been ever in my life for well over a year now.

The biggest change for me was the weakening of the feeling of the self as a distinct concept and the narrative attached to it. When that dropped away it was incredible how many habits that improved my quality of life just started happening. My sleep routine became fixed, I started exercising almost every day, and my friendships blossomed.

It's hard to describe - but these changes seemingly arose out of observation rather than an act of will.

Just one suggestion out of many, but I hope you find yourself feeling less stuck in the near future.