[OliverGilan]

A lot of comments here dismissing OP but I’ll say this. 1) it’s really not too late. You’re older than most that have kids but it’s really not impossible. You can have a surrogate or adopt or still try natural and screen for abnormalities. 2) I think it’s quite rude and destructive to dismiss someone who is obviously depressed because they regret an irreversible life choice they made by saying they need to find inner peace. By far one of the most crushing situations in life is the sheer reality that no matter what you do you cannot turn back the hand of time. Telling OP he nees to find inner peace and needs to learn about himself before he can even think of having kids isn’t very helpful. It sounds like he has learned about himself and it sounds like he realized he’s made a decision he deeply regrets and is faced by thag every day. Of course he won’t have inner peace why should he? I think in the long arc of a life yes he’ll need to readjust his internal narrative and come to terms with his life but if he’s depressed because he dodsn’t have children in his life I’m inclined to believe him and the logical conclusion is that having kids can help. It’s not too late and OP should explore all the options out there if he is serious about this.