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It really wasn't any more complicated than that. I just didn't want to be this drinking person any more and I realized how massive waste of time it has been.

It probably means though that I didn't have any chemical addiction and it certainly helped that I had a things to do that benefited instantly from my decision – my work at that time.

It probably also helped that I was raised up by parents who didn't allow me to blame others when things went wrong with me – "You can't change to world no matter badly it behaves, but you can always do better yourself."