[vulture916]

From your description, it doesn't sound like you're all that bad. It isn't wrong to enjoy having an occasional drink. It's important to recognize and embrace the feelings you described after drinking. Moreover, the fact you've made this post and describe yourself as wanting to stop, I think that's a huge part of the battle.

It sounds like the most crucial thing for you would be to identify what it is that makes you crack after weeks of not buying it (not sure if that's the same as not drinking). Address and work through that, see how it goes. Your mind and body are clearly recognizing the negative affects and trying to steer you in one direction... but there's still something that brings you back and you need to figure out what that is.

Godspeed, my friend.

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> it doesn't sound like you're all that bad

Disagree it sounds like somewhere in the beginning to the middle of a real problem. Alcohol cravings are definiteley a sign of a problem if you can't just swap it in your mind for any other (non alcoholic) drink you like and not feel like "nope, not the same"

Remember: Alcohol is a cell poison and there is no healthy amount to consume