[ammanley]

Been there buddy (including that exact, form-letter rejection email). I feel for you. I just finished a 9 month interview cycle of funemployment, with a break of two months in-between where I too, was questioning my reason for even being in this industry.

My background is a coding bootcamp + relentless up-skilling and self-directed learning (with the help of some mentors), plus a healthy side of ADHD/spectrum issues, including, best of all, crippling social anxiety.

I cannot tell you in words how astounding it is to go from a full stack dev lead, to being reduced to failing junior-level code interviews because my brain just leaves the chat in the middle of most interactions with new people, let alone interactions involving cognitive effort/hazing.

You matter and the fact we have to spin our wheels on this grindstone does not change that.

[I_AM_A_SMURF]

Have you tried ADHD medications? I don't normally take them but they really helped me going through the interviews (I legitimately have ADHD, but the side effects are too much for me for normal use)

[anonymoushn]

There are some with minimal sides, if you can stand going to a doctor enough times to try out and reject several.

[sizzle]

Any recommendation? Vynase, Dexedrine, etc?

[SimDeBeau]

I’ve loved straterra. One of the few non stimulant adhd meds

[ammanley]

Did you find that that helped you focus despite anxiety? Annoyingly, I've only been able to get my hands on the most common one, Adderall, which turns me into a bouncy boy flying off the walls for some reason. It sadly seemed to trigger my anxiety too. Child comment mentions trying some others, which I might do.

(Have been on multiple different anti anxiety / depression meds, as well as a few anti seizure meds too fwiw.)

[treeman79]

Adderral is rough. I’ve had better luck with Concerta or vyvanse

Adderall would make me super energetic for hours. Crazy chattt. Then I would be really focused for a for a couple hours. Then it would wear off and I would be drained. After a few weeks I started having horrific burning pain throughout body. Extended release is supposed to be better.

I do much better on other Medication. Kids do great on them. One is best on concerta. Other does better on vyvanse. My whole family is crazy strong ADHD. I prefer concerta. Vvyanze initially made me crazy sad. When I tried it again a year later it didn’t do that.

[sizzle]

Dexedrine has less stimulating effects and more smoother side effects, still an amphetamine like Adderall. Check it out with a doctor.

[I_AM_A_SMURF]

Ah that's the catch, I didn't get anxiety from Adderall so that wasn't a problem. As others have said, I would try some other medication if possible at all, they really do help.

[ammanley]

I appreciate you for bringing this up. I will definitely do this, as I had given up on the whole schtick for a while (mostly just the 420 now)