[gratitoad]

The point isn’t how similar (or not) the experiences in my mind are to actual death, it’s that at those times I’m convinced I am experiencing not just death, but total annihilation of my consciousness which is my personal best guess about what happens to us when we die. It’s not the moments leading up to death I’ve feared, it’s non-being and attachment to my own thoughts.

So then when I’ve experienced a series of “welp, here we go, I’m on my way to nothingness” and dealt with that terror in those moments, I’ve had the opportunity to accept that fate and even embrace the unknown.

And now that I’m not gripped by existential terror when I think of my own death, I find myself wondering if I’ll be surprised to find something else on the other side of it. And that’s way more fun :)