[wheelerof4te]

No, it's just stress and anxiety.

Also, my motor skills are bad so I literally can't relax, even if I want to. Low dose of alcohol helps my hands and upper torso relax.

[boplicity]

You're medicating for stress and anxiety? That's another common way people start evolving alcoholics. Don't self medicate. It's dangerous and can lead to alcoholism. Far better to seek appropriate care from a professional.