[joshuajill]

You sound like someone who is looking for deeper meaning in life.

Not knowing what inspires you or motivates you, maybe you'd be better exploring your sense of purpose, what rewards you in the long run, what gives meaning to your life.

You are apparently too set to care about your job as a sustenance and distractions don't seem to entertain you. I would say connect with something bigger like travel Nature, people with problems bigger than yours, memento mori or whatever makes sense to you.

Looking back, in my case what helped was working with the homeless, and later as a volunteer trained in psychology with the sick and eldery. They helped me more than I helped them I feel.

But that's me you'll to figure out what's your thing.