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I'd echo a few sentiments already listed. This sounds a lot like burnout. Therapy is probably one of the first things I'd recommend, but I'll also note that finding a therapist when you're struggling with your mental health is a really hard thing to do... so be patient with yourself. If you find a therapist and you're not vibing with what they're saying or it makes you feel worse, drop them.

I was going through burnout in 2021. Took medical leave from work which helped somewhat. I went to a therapist that recommended keeping a positivity journal which absolutely exhausted me to even think about. Dropped them and found someone closer aligned to a medical context (through the same company that provided a psychiatrist that I also sought for adhd treatment). It helped, a lot.

Email is in my account if you'd like to talk more about it. I've got some resources I could send your way.