[pacarvalho]

I would recommend talking to a professional. There are psychologists and equivalent professionals that specialize on this and they may be able to provide you some guidance.

Not sure this helps but believe in yourself. The fact that you are even willing to talk about this already shows a level of self realization that few are able to achieve.

[yarg]

I went to a psychologist - she told me there was very little that could be done to help someone in the grips of an existential crisis.

Psilocybin mushrooms have done more to help me than any mental health professional ever will.