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I thought this was me. Many professionals told me this was me. I had a horrible off and on decade fighting it, trying to do all the things you're supposed to, feeling guilty for failing and hating myself. A decade later someone finally figured out - despite the small fortune spent on education and medical professionals - that I actually had ADHD and some learning disabilities. There was a slightly different model with previously hidden forces. Only now, knowing this, have I finally been able to effect real positive change for myself.

Make sure you have the right model for you.