[ryukoposting]

I'm not a doctor, and neither are 99.9% of people on HN, so I'm not going to give you advice on SSRIs.

However, I was (...am) depressed, and I have ADHD. I have been medicated for the latter since I was in middle school. I prefer to work through the former myself.

While I've gone places and I've done cool things, part of me feels like it's the meds, not me. I struggle with that every day. I can do basic things off my meds. But my job? Hell no.

I say this for two reasons. First: meds aren't going to flip a switch and make you happy and perfect. Second: the worst thing I deal with on a daily basis is impostor syndrome. Given my family history, that's pretty damn good.

You owe it to yourself to try helping yourself. You deserve it.