[xupybd]

You do have other options such as therapy. I would recommend going that route if you can. If you can't, or that doesn't work, medication can be a good way to dig you out of this situation.

It sounds like your situation is bad enough to warrant some risks.

[aidepast]

I did see a counselor for about 6 months, and I was kicked out in June, as they believed I required a higher level of care, such as an intensive outpatient program and/or an SSRI.

I've attempted to read books on OCD. I've attempted Exposure-Response Prevention on my own with limited success. I reach a wall. I don't want to experience the seemingly endless stress that I'd endure from the most significant exposures and I shutdown.

[xupybd]

Keep trying things. You can beat this and find out the solution that works for you.