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What you describe seems to be a lack of setting a personal goal for yourself. A goal that gives you a sense of purpose and personal growth.

Things you considered fantastic when you where younger are, of course, still fantastic (if not to you then certainly to somebody else). Once you achieved these things, you realized that many of these things are still very important but more similar to carrying a responsibility than providing a sense of fulfillment beyond this responsibility.

It is probably fine to not have any meetings, but how many meaningful conversation do you have with people you care outside of your family (at the job, while enjoying a hobby, when talking to people in your neighborhood) on a regular basis?

What is certainly human is to reflect on paths taken, to think about possibilities, to think about what could have been. This is natural but not necessarily very helpful. The key is not to live in the past or to live in the future... the key is to live in the present and learn to see and enjoy the good moments in life while they last.

You wrote you have a good relationship with your wife and that you have healthy kids. Congratulations! You are blessed with something you can`t buy with money or status. Make the most out of it.