[wwayer]

I've been writing code for 40 years. That will give you and idea of my age and my experience.

You are suffering from a loss and you are heartbroken. My advice is to allow yourself to cry. Try to cry as often as possible. Doing so will help you heal. As the days go by, you will cry a little less each day. Eventually, there will be days where you don't cry and you will start to feel better. It doesn't seem like it now, but you will feel better. Hang in there.

[leach]

Thank you, it was my first love too so it’s just my first real heatbreak over that sort of thing. I’m no stranger to loss, so i think the feeling of it is just intensified by pervious losses.

I know i eventually will be ok, i just have trouble in the interim. I was trying to build up a productive summer but it’s turning into a disaster. Just as life seems to do.