[tomhoward]

I started out building websites as a hobby in about 1996 and somewhat professionally in about 2001. I’ve worked on many different web projects over the years, using various different platforms, frameworks and libraries. After 20-25 years in the game, it’s really only been in the past 3-4 years I’ve really felt like I’ve known what I’m doing. Even now stuff still throws me.

So, don’t be discouraged. Don’t think you’re stupid/incompetent for not knowing everything yet. It really can take a long time to understand how all the parts of the stack work together.

Aside from continuing to improve your craft, think about how you can improve your relationships with your colleagues so they become more supportive, or consider leaving and finding a workplace that is more nurturing to less experienced team members. Such places do exist and it’s worth making the effort to find a workplace where you feel supported and valued.

Good luck to you.