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Sorry for not replying sooner, but I haven't been online here and simply didn't see it.

Thanks for the long reply, it was a interesting read. I wish you really well.

You mentioned homelessness and mental inllnes several times and I can imagine a situation (I don't know if its acurate though) in which I can understand you. The breaking point for me would be, if I can no longer pull myself out of a misery on my own - without help in sight. That must be very frustrating.

Being angry is not bad or anything. It's okay to be angry. It's okay to be and feel (almost) anything. I don't have a problem with that in general. For me personally, I try to stay away from it, because nothing comes out of it. I'm not resposible and if something turns out a way, then it turned out that way. I can't change that - it already happend. I can (if I am in a situation that enables me to) still change how things are going forward. But 'anger' is a bad companion for that.

My fortune is, that I still have parents where I can occupy a room in the basement. Constant (several years long) failure and mental illness are no strangers to me as well. But I came to the conclusion that it does not matter the slightest what other people think about me or how they life their lifes. It does not take away anything from me and I have to accept that. I'm curious, but I stopped comparing (for example). What I can understand though, is, that I am in a lucky spot to have a working support system. If that breaks apart, I don't know if I would go sour and cynical.

To make one point clear, I don't really have a stance here, I'm just interested. I didn't meant to attack you, if you fell like this was the case.

About: “it’s not the quantity of what you’ve seen but what you took from it” - I know this was a cheesy thing to say, but it was a interesting realisation for me to have in the past. I was raised christian and had rose tinted glasses on for the most of my life. When I 'woke up', it really buffled me how different people actually are and that there is so much more nuace to everything. And most imporantly, there are people (in your age, eg. my parents and friends) who keep their glasses on their whole life and don't even know it. They're missing out big time. After seeing that, age is no longer a 'trump card' for me. Nevertheless I try to (hopefully successful) respect the old. But I don't accept a "I'm old, my argument is based on my rich experiences" any longer. (This is not a critique to a religion, but what people in my environment made from it.)

See, I can 'write my heart out' (a little) and go in ramble mode as well.

I hope you have an above-average day today, FollowingTheDao. I wish you very well :)