[captainchris]

Yes. Failed startup and haven't coded in four years. Ears blown out from a failed non-starter music career. And, stopped being able to process being part of a google-led surveillance society via no-opt-out malicious or amoral psyops that egregiously abuse my provided personal data and other undisclosed non-provided personal data in a soft-real-time stream-of-consciousness manner.

I am homeless. I have no address. On foot now, walking to get food, since I have no transportation of any kind. I have about $80 on cashapp and apple pay thanks to some folks here who tried supporting my renewed desire to write software again. That desire is gone and I would like to be gone.

My food stamps just got cancelled yesterday since I have no addr and since I missed required paperwork. It's the final straw that has pushed me to the end. I've been getting tumbled around and held under a rogue wave for years now and have reached a breaking point where my ability to avoid suicide is dissipating.

I am not likely to code or work again. Likely outcome is suicide by rope, which I hope to complete this week after the $80 runs out.

[whatthedangheck]

This is really dark. How did this all start. Were you employed at one point or did you start that startup? How old are you? Where do you live?

[captainchris]

I was a software dev mgr for a multi data center hosting company, then became the technical cofounder for a startup. Mid 40's in the USA in a great climate (won't freeze).

Failed lives are hard to identify root causes. I didn't adapt to society. We only have control over ourselves, ultimately (despite the notion at malicious evil corps like Google that automated behavior control is possible).

Hey, note for Susan Wojcicki. You are an irresponsible sociopath. I've thoroughly vocalized my grievances about your firm's data abuse practices, which fell on (your) deaf ears.

If Google agrees to open up 100% of their dossier they secretly maintain on me, I'll stick around. Otherwise, I plan on committing suicide this week.

[whatthedangheck]

Before you take such a drastic action you should try to visit a shelter or an outreach service of some kind and keep an open mind and an open heart about any services they offer you. Wishing you the best.

[captainchris]

Thanks for your well wishes.

[wuschel]

Please keep going! Get help!!!

[captainchris]

Ms. Wojcicki and Mr. Pichai:

I need your help. Please open up 100% of your dossier on me so I can begin to regain a sense of normalcy. I need you to do this for me so I can come to grips with nonconsentually participating in your respective firms' data abuse and behavior control experiment practices.

Your non-response amounts to gaslighting. You count on civilians submitting their private lives to you without questioning what you do with their data. You are not responsible stewards of our personal data. Cybersecurity is only half of the responsibility equation. You are a failure and blight on society regarding social responsibility. I already know you will not respond to me, a person who is adamantly opposed to your data abuse practices, and who is willing to wager eternity to protest your rule over our data.

You are primarily concerned with your own control, wealth, and power. Shame on you.